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THE SHELTER PROJECT- EST. 8-2010
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Purchases on behalf of The Shelter Project have donations going to animals who:
Are in need of rescuing- a wide variety of situations, and of course the initial costs of intake, when an animal is being given over. Have been rescued and are in need of immediate medical attention and general medical care. Need to be Spayed or Neutered, and Vaccinated. Need food, medicine, blankets, toys, a sanitary environment. Are advertised in local newspapers in their Adopt-A-Pet sections. Participate in various medical programs. Currently Live at The South Coast Humane Society while waiting for their FURR-EVER home,
... and is where I am currently volunteering since moving to here in 2011, (after the project was already one year old).
BESIDES, The Shelter Project I am also the photographer for South Coast Humane Society and I photograph the cats and dogs, for the Adopt-A-Pet sections of the newspapers, and the photos also get uploaded to our Petfinder.com and FB pages, for internet coverage!
WHAT CAN YOU PURCHASE to DONATE & HELP THE ANIMALS OF THE SHELTER PROJECT?
Literally ANY of my images in my galleries, regardless of the subject, as PRINTS. Just ASK, via dA NOTE or email. I have prices on PDF file. It's quite easy.
Literally ANY of my images, in my galleries, regardless of the subject, as hand-crafted Photo GREETING CARDS. Just let me know which images, and how many cards, via dA NOTE or email. I have prices on PDF file, too. Easy to do!
A wide variety of JEWELRY crafts, which include: earrings, necklaces, bracelets, and sets of ALL three. I also make anklets, beaded "friendship rings", wire wrapped rings, beaded key chains, and beaded key necklaces, and beaded hair clips, too.
Prices will vary quite a bit, so simply contact me by dA Note, or email, if you are interested in anything you see.
You could also, visit:teaphotography.com However there has rarely been time to keep it maintained.
I do not and can NOT profit from anything that is purchased for The Shelter Project, because anything left after the 25% donation, MUST go back to ALL the many materials it takes to create these products, in order to keep this project going!
And I can't overcharge, or no one would do it.
I'm always willing to give MORE INFO. and details surrounding this very helpful cause and Project for animals in need.
Simply ask in a dA NOTE or in email: firstname.lastname@example.org.
And YES, I have PAYPAL exactly for this project!
I would like to thank EACH person who HAS 'd ANY works directly about The Shelter Project or even my shelter/rescue animals in general.
You have helped tremendously by the spreading of the awareness of an immensely good cause that helps animals!
THANK YOU SO MUCH to THE SHELTER PROJECT AFFILIATES and SUPER AFFILIATES of dA
The following dA Groups and individuals with dA Accounts have been especially instrumental in a variety of ways- with their extra special support of The Shelter Project. Several of them have even made purchases- a few more than once!
Purchasing jewelry, most of which is inspired by NATURE, and is hand-crafted by me, TEA of Tea Photography, creates donations for Animals in Need, via "The Shelter Project".
Thank you to everyone who has already helped in this way, and multiple times, who plans to help again, to those who plan to make a purchase, and thank you to those who have helped in other ways, by purchasing PRINTS and GREETING CARDS!
YOU SAVE ANIMALS.
All of these continue to be ongoing opportunities to help our animal friends and companions, through "The Shelter Project".
So... If you don't see it, ASK!
The truth is, if you don't see it, simply ask... you never know, I MIGHT have it! Or I might be able to get the materials to make it, or make something similar, or something... we CAN work together to save animals.
Pauline kurios-kat was a partner in a SPECIAL PROJECT, called: "The Shelter ART Project": in which she sponsored the Artwork that I donated and presented to the *FIRST* shelter that was benefiting from The Shelter Project, before I had moved. There was even some left over for a direct donation, and due to all of this, it is why she is included here!
Each of the above friends/supporters are truly fabulous individuals, who are extremely compassionate people, that they would participate in "The Shelter Project", in this way which directly benefits animals, while receiving any of my custom made Artwork!
I am forever grateful from the bottom of my heart! .... to think of the ANIMALS they have helped!
I have been away from dA (again) for a while, and so this is long, though I know I tend to write long as it is, but at this time, I find much of it necessary on various levels, because too much has happened & much of it does affect dA.
And I do not know when I will be able to be this informative again, however, I whole-heartedly respect & understand time-constraints, so this Personal & News Journal IS divided into FOUR (main) sections, for your convenience, in the following order:
YOU- ME- OTHER THINGS- GROUPS
And, NOT all of it is happy, esp. sections "Me" & "Other Things", just to warn you, just in case you want to skim or skip over.
While it does all tend to be related, if you have a chance to read any at all, at least you can know which section/s to scroll to or though.
Thank you at all, for just dropping by... it's good to SEE YOU.
~ YOU ~
"THE SHETLER PROJECT"
It does still exist, and I STILL have plans to update you all, properly....
Thank you to Ola UszatyArbuz who who made this beautiful skin for “The Shelter Project” first to help raise points for the Project- and THANKS to ALL of YOU who purchased it during 2016- … and then she passed it to me, so that I could FINALLY make a much needed and deserved update about the Project, which STILL has not happened! :/
Still, I will use this amazing skin, until I CAN make such an update! It deserves to be used, AND, regardless, the PROJECT will always at least be mentioned, because there are STILL animals which you- the Affiliates and SUPER-Affiliates, of "The Shelter Project" DO continue to help! And ANYONE is welcomed to join this TEAM! There is info. about it all over my Profile Page and in each SUB-Gallery, though there should be a few updates in these places as well. Regardless of exact updates, the animals still exist, and need our help.
The Shelter Project, still exists but I've been going much slower these days, (and it is best to USE MY EMAIL) for questions, orders, & any communications re: any items to do with "The Shelter Project".
If you need something way in advance of a date, please let me know soonest. And if you are patient, this system WILL work out. Just ask my sweet beautiful friend Lily, Annissina, who DID receive everythingBEFORE Christmas! She is a repeat customer of "The Shelter Project" which of course makes her a SUPER-Affiliate, and she's an avid supporter/advertiser - (which grants you an Affiliate-status)
Thank you Lily Annissina for your ever faith and belief in me, AND your "go-with-the-flow" attitude! I am blessed by you,m'dear.
I also want to thank the two other people, I was periodically mentioning with my "three orders" (the first had indeed been Lily Annissina ) whose orders I needed to get to at the same time, but it became impossible, however, EACH has offered to pay me NOW, with the trust and belief that I will get to the items whenever I am able. One is on dA, and remains anonymous. The other, not on dA, but a repeat customer, does read me on dA regular. So I thank you both, PROFOUNDLY, simply for such trust.
While, it's true I know each one well, I myself, have BIG issues with trust, and I don't know if I could do that.
However, as long as my hands/arms have function, I will get going with those two orders (and a couple others I suspect, which may be stuck in NOTES, somewhere- which I have NOT gotten to in a LONG time, )
Two other anonymous donors sent money directly to the Project, one via PayPal, and one directly to me. I know they trust me, because they already know me well, but still, to have that kind of will and heart to do something like that, when you've not met in person- or even if you HAVE!
It's just hard for ME to understand, as I have had, and STILL have, trouble with "trust" - and so it is an extremely genuine gift to BE trusted.
Sometimes, I think with all that I am going through, & various recent inabilities & absenteeism, that, people would have given up on me, which more importantly, would be to say, in this case, ... to give up on "The ShelterProject" -something gives me a sense of purpose, as well as a belonging & TEAM SPIRIT with others helping these innocent animals in need.
I am indeed truly blessed by ALL OF YOU, who have helped, and who have continued to help repeatedly, and those who want to help!
I WILL continue to do my best, even if has slowed down for now- I am not yet sure if it is permanent- but for now it IS what it IS. Thank you for your understanding.
I so do appreciate those who have tried to reach out during this time of trouble, either with a gift art of kindness, a post office greeting card, email, other...
(Unfortunately, I've likely missed a couple- I've scrolled through NOTES, a couple times, a while ago, but I've been unable to do a thing with them... for certain reasons.)
I have done a poor job in replying in kind, but this is due number one to medical disability. Today (& now day TWO, working on this) I write, to ALL, because... I CAN... and in any other time, I will be taking so VERY VERY extra good care of my HANDS, as well as some other things that have gone wrong... BUT, my hands and arms are also now very affected, SO I am writing while I can. I've needed to get back here and touch base in these various ways...
Please do NOT feel bad if you did NOT get a Holiday Greeting card this year- if you have in the past, you know it's cause I LOVE to do them! I even added a couple of new people to my dA list of those I've sent to in the past, because I assumed I would be able to create some sort of greeting card and send them out, as per usual, for example- I wanted to add LindArtz & CameronKobe as I did get to them more over the year- BOTH such excellent & exceptional people, who have showed me every kindness, and ounce of patience.
However, this was the first year in my life that I did not send out holiday greeting cards, due to complete incapacitation.
This is really late, but it still warms my heart when I think about it, especially since a lot of the wishes that I was trying to receive were occurring during an extremely SCARY TIME for me- when my health took a very bad turn. From the bottom of my heart, I appreciated every gorgeous, meaningful dA gift art, e-card, REAL LIFE sent gift, & dA Points!
Thank you to:
(I realize that a few of you had done more than one of those above mentioned... but I think it's better for YOU if I just mention you once... and I do apologize that I am not able to actually do a feature for you. You know I would love to. )
YOUR BIRTHDAY WISHES WERE SOMETHING I GLOMMED onto, which gave (GIVE!) me strength and hope during a frightening time. I can't explain this part enough, I just can't.
Beyond which, the wishes alone, and llamas left on my Profile Page, by also some of you already mention, BUT MANY OTHERS, were so lovely, and gave me something positive amid, what had begun as a very extra challenging end-of-the-year.
I'm sorry, that I am unable to mention ALL of you, as the scope of this Personal/News Journal is already so MUCH. As long as you know how appreciated your own wishes also were.
BIRTHDAY STUFF, 2 & 3
I almost made it through November, sort of, though I lost it near the end, with my group Unframed-Nature , but also with sending out B-DAY wishes, there WERE a couple more November friends I had a wish for, and instead of a gift-art,I will feature them here, NOV. B-DAY wishes were/are:
crazygardener David is a very nice person. He's always upbeat, and comments on my work! A truly very sweet guy.
WDWParksGal For me, knowing Phyllis as long as I have, I've always thought of her as an unsung hero! She works so hard in groups, and often behind the scenes, requiring no accolades, just doing what needs to be done. She has run DevNews in a Co-Founder position, as the Founder for a very long time, and I know first-hand how hard that is. Plus she makes magical work!
Of course, I certainly wish ALL of my DECEMBER friends a Happy B-DAY, too, but I have not been around to do this either... and unfortunately, I am not able to gift or feature you all.
For now, extra shout out & mini-feature of just a few December wishes to:
bbvzla Jean has become a very super sweet friend, in recent times. And I am a HUGE FAN of her so fabulous work!
marthig For me, I have always found dear Martha to be very devoted to her friends & groups on dA. She is passionate about her work and causes that are important, AND has a good handle on what is not so important as well. I am blessed that she has always been willing to be so supportive of me with contests at Unframed-Nature as well as do a lot of advertising for "The Shelter Project". She has all understanding in the inability to make replies, or get around to everything, and is just all-around honest, considerate, and easy going.
Casey, has been an amazing friend to me for a while now. I have been wholly impressed to witness how much his work has improved on dA, and of course our paths were crossed by our shared deep love of Nature, and likely mutual friends. But, the fact that he believes so strongly in the cause and meaningfulness behind "The Shelter Project" so as to run a Points Pool for this reason alone, and direct his wishes from dAWishingWell toward the Project, Etc., has moved me greatly in the Spirit of Teamwork, and the shared understanding of the importance of being a Voice for the Animals. Similarly, he has offered help, when I was more... closed- but he knew I was hurting yet could not express myself, and still he hung in there with me, understanding that pain is pain is pain, and even when we can't verbalize it, a truly compassionate person will still understand. Thank you Casey, from the very bottom of my heart, for a most wonderful heart-felt friendship.
Bit of Warning- The Next Two Sections are MORE Personal, and Not so Happy. I mention it in advance, in case you come across this, and with all else in the world going on, or your own lives, etc., you just don't need more downers... compleeeetely understandable. However, I'm finally simply trying my best, while I am in a limited window of ability, to put in one place, somewhat of my personal medical update, as there ARE those who have asked, and many people I am behind with in correspondence, and THEN with which will explain a whole lot... It just simply depends on WHO you are, and I honestly do NOT mind, if you do not want to read the following TWO sections. /End Warning.
Where to start... somehow this is the hardest part. There was an "emergency" journal that went out to Unframed-Nature and friends on my profile journal, right at the START of Nov., and that contained the very preliminary occurrences.
Recapping a bit, on my trip with my family in a state that does not accept my insurance (only 3 does) I woke up from a nap a couple days before Halloween- the day I was due to return home, and I was paralyzed from the waist down and in so much of a type of pain, I had never before experienced.
I called a nursing hotline on my insurance card, explained the symptoms, and was told to get to the ER as soon as possibly, by ambulance. We did not take an ambulance, and we waited for 6 hours. They only did UltraSounds on my legs to be sure I didn't have blood clots which I didn't and sent me on my way, with pain meds, until I could get to a Neurologist.
Of course my actual Neurologist is in California, BETWEEN where I was visiting and where I live, and I was due to FLY HOME. So it took four flights, and many wheel chairs later... getting home, & that was almost 2 months ago, & I'm not much better yet, in fact some other things have occurred since, OR have been exacerbated.
I was able to pull a team of doctors together pretty fast, and they were able to advance my case due to the severity of my symptoms, and that alone was a miracle, though it's been the only one, because since then it's been the "hurry up, and WAIT" game.
We got a 2nd Neurologist, to help be the EYES of my original Neuro. in California, since I only see her once a year and our appointments are on the phone, between times.
HERE IS WHAT WE KNOW NOW ABOUT CURRENT PROBLEM
Via MRI testing, I have a BULGING disc at between L-3 and L-4, (of my lumber, lower back) it is "traversing the ROOT of the nerve on the LEFT side".
My original Neurologist and my primary doctor seemed to find this very concerning, where the new -more local- Neurologist, was far more concerned with how much Arthritis was throughout my back in general, explaining that when the Arthritis flares up, Discs can bulge, causing pain and discomfort on their own. There is another bulging Disc just above, but it is not touching a nerve... yet. And the arthritis of the back, causes muscle spasms down the legs, as also sharp pains are caused by the root of the nerve that is being touched by the disc that is bulging.
It is true that mostly my left side of my back and major nerve points down the back of my leg are worse than the right, but accounting for the kind of pain for the right leg,- which has a sharper more intermittent pain, rather than constant- this newer Neurologist says that is what is being caused by the severe Arthritic back spasms, which can also cause pain and numbness.
Ooookay then so, so far, all that is going to happen with my back is, injections into that one nerve on the left with steroids, which likely won't happen until *at least* February if I am lucky AND then Physical Therapy, and we will hope that will clear up some of the problems. But the summary is Degenerative Disc Disease, which I also have throughout my C-Spine (neck), anyway, also Dx'd via an MRI over a decade ago. The discs there aren't bulging out onto nerves but the vertebrae are crushing down on them, so there is less and less to little cushion between the vertebrae, which is the BIGGEST reason, I've always had severe neck pain.
Anyway, sadly this local "new-to-me Neuro." didn't appear quite as interested in other issues, the way my original one continues to care about, so we'll see....
Because, HERE IS WHAT ELSE WE KNOW
There are things going on with my feet which apparently are separate from my back. However, I believe they were triggered by what happened with my back or exacerbated by it, or something, only because some of it, isn't *brand* new- however, it HAS been more acute than ever!
The Plantars Fashitiis is back full board, both feet equally as before, but worse than ever- that band under each of my foot's arch, is on fire, and I have stabbing pains on the heels and balls of my feet as well.
Also it is *suspected* I have Tibial Nerve Entrapment, where the nerve that goes between the inner ankle and the heel is being pinched- causing pain like... indescribable words mixed with curse words, and the left foot has Achilles Tendonitis. (These are not yet officially diagnosed.) But I do finally have another (phone) appointment with my orig. Neuro. on Jan. 9th- end of her day, so we can have time to be as comprehensive as possible- however, it IS coming up on year... when it definitely likely I should be seeing her in person. (It's just the sheer preparation of such a trip- last March 2016 was excessively stressful on many levels.)
After, or maybe sometime during the schedule of the plans for my back, I will be referred to a Podiatrist for my various problems with my feet... however,
The rest of my foot issues are back to Neurology, and I'm not sure what else there is to do:
The chronic Neuropathy in both feet and legs has never been this bad. I can't feel them from the toes up to the knee on most days, and with my back problems, I can't feel my legs from the waist down. Somewhere they must be overlapping!
The Neuropathy, causes very bizarre numbness along with pain like cacti being rolled over my legs!!!
Because, OF ALL OF THE ABOVE
First, I could not go anywhere, until first we got a cane, but it wasn't enough, so I had to get a walker.
Yes, very depressing, for anyone, but... also for someone of my age. I tried to be positive, and ordered a purple one, (and no tennis balls, but mini-ski's on the back) and put a cute little bag on the front which my friend Laura (not on dA) gave me for my B-Day...
THEN, the Neuropathy which I'd also been diagnosed with in my hands and arms last March, 2016 also, when I'd seen my main orig. Neuro. in person, suddenly also increased to full blown. Complete numbness, and this horrid feeling of dragging four clubbed limbs around that weigh more than I do, has just been beyond I could take. That, or laying like an upside down BUG in my bed, alone at home, unable to re-right myself, because none of my limbs work!
Loss of use of legs and feet are bad enough, but NO, NO, NO, I could not lose the use of my hands and arms!
They are how I make my way in SO many ways. They are how I do anything left that gives me a sense of purpose, as well as trying to massage my own lower back, legs, & feet. But also they are connection to anyone I know. Though, I have been doing some voice texting, so I am already trying to learn new ways, for certain things... just in case.
Peripheral Neuropathy is usually a mild to chronic condition that occurs because of another UNDERLYING condition. For me, the thought is that it is due to the Auto-Immune Disorders of Rheumatoid Arthritis (separate from the fact I have Osteo-Arthritis), and also Chronic (Unresponsive) Fibromyalgia, both of which I've had for at least 10-15 years. But it's definitely, thought to be from an Auto-Immune Disfunction-& I have been tested for others- either they are negative or unconclusive- needing to test in other ways, but haven't, etc.
Then, somewhat separately, (maybe) I had been having a bit of trouble with my heart, since maybe almost a year. Except, admittedly, I did have some chest pains during the time I was going through my divorce many years ago by now- and while I did go see my parents' cardiologist at the time, I didn't follow through because the office was packing up and moving, and too much was going on for me, as well, and then the pains eventually dissipated.
But they have returned. During the Summer, when my parents were visiting, I failed an EKG (ECG) treadmill stress test. As a result, I have been referred to a Cardiologist. I was officially referred in August, AND, my appointment is the LAST WEEK of JANUARY- just another example of how poor medical care can be in many areas in of our country for many people!
However, I don't believe it's currently anything serious, BUT, we have a STRONG family history- both parents, ALL grandparents, and my brother has had a Cardiologist- but for high BP, (which I don't have), for many years now, and he's younger, by a year.
So we'll see what more *that* reveals, once I finally get to that point.
I'd rather get myself to the EYE doctor, if possible, as my vision has been largely compromised very noticeably, in just one year! It is a goal, but our current insurance does not pay anything for vision (or dental)- under a completely different type of plan, that could change. We are actually working on this!
The truth is, I've been legally disabled since 2007, and I've had Chronic medical illnesses since I was a very young girl.
ALL of the above, is just the very end, or most recent of my tale spanning just over 4 decades.
"Legally Disabled" because up until that point I was somehow able to maintain a teaching career, for almost 15 years, until, I... simply... just... could... not. It all became WAY TOO difficult. I needed to give 110% to my students, but it was becoming to the severe detriment of my health, because I could not ALSO care for myself.
I asked to share my contract, but they said "all or nothing" and so with no compromise, I had to choose nothing, and the devastation of leaving my career that I worked so hard for, still haunts me a decade later.
Additionally, I got an extra raw deal in disability through my teachers' association... the details of which no one can fathom the truth, because it got completely messed up in a very strange way, (a story unto itself) and I prepared for court, yet again, but the liaison said it wouldn't help; it was too late.
I am *legally* disabled for my longest medical problem, Severe Chronic Migraines- now re-labeled just over a year ago as: "Advanced Migraine Disease" (a bit rare) which means by NOW they are directly affecting my Central Nervous System.
These horrendous head pains which I've had for about four decades straight now have only worsened instead of improved as everyone has always assumed that they would, with age- as Migraines DO with most people. I HAVE RUN THE GAMUT with these, throughout my whole life, Western & Eastern/Alternative, and have been almost everywhere on the West Coast. This type of twisted grotesque head pain truly is my longest-running NEMESIS.
I'm *legally* disabled also for two other things: Non-responsive Fibromyalgia, and Two different sleep disorders (one common, & one rare- take too long to explain)
There is a slew of other things other things which have been admittedly quite debilitating, such as Endometriosis, several awful (is there another kind?) upper & lower G.I.problems- (details and Dx's I won't bother to go into), some kidney problems,
and the fact I was born with a compromised immune system... and we do NOT need to go through the whole laundry list because it really is rather overwhelming and truth is, I've lived it ALL for very long, and it's still overwhelming for me.
A compromised immune system, usually means that for some reason, you were born with an immune system lower than average, so you tend to catch every cold, flu, and whatever virus, more easily than most people- and thus,
for one example growing up, since a baby I had so many colds and ear infections, that it is thought that this is the reason I've always had so many ENT issues (Ear, Nose, & Throat) and why I've been going deaf- the left ear worse.
All these years I have not wanted to mention any of this online, well, on dA because I wanted my work and projects to stand for themselves- and I didn't want anyone to "like me" or support me, or pay attention to me for ANY reasons having to do with these acute medical problems.
But right at the beginning of Nov. I, had to send out an emergency journal for Unframed-Nature about the recent stuff, and over the years, I have told several people via NOTE or E-MAIL some of my issues, and I simply figured that being on dA this long by now, people are already going to support my work and projects for what they are, NO MATTER WHAT my personal challenges.
But again, enough of BACKGROUND. The Background of which, I've come to stop fighting and TRY TO LEARN TO LIVE WITH!
However, it's this recent bout of medical problems has me nearly over the edge.
How, HOW, do I "get used to" or "deal with" yet more sets of medical problems??? This is a very rhetorical question, mind you. It's just I've been feeling quite upset and frustrated- like ground zero, since nearly TWO months, now.
Anyway, to say the least, since the very end of October, I've been beside myself, with not just the extra physical ailments, but feelings of despair, depression, and even despondency.
And I already HAD a slew of medical bills, and there is SO MUCH MORE to come... I am at such a loss, in a state in which things have not ever been this desperate in such a variety of ways.
I feel strange even doing this. I am very new to it, as it is actually my first time. I have a couple of Wish Lists. One, I recently re-organized, and it is RIGHT HERE and linked on dA in a Custom Box on my Profile Page. It is my dA Wish List for local art by dA Artists. I plan to pay closer attention to this from now on, to keep it organized, but fairly succinct. In this way, I could feel mentally uplifted, while also knowing I'm giving back to dA- & more specifically to a deserving artist right here on dA, which in turn would make THEM happy. Win, Win? A fair amount of us, here on dA keep dA Wish Lists, so that's not too odd at all.
The other one is a bit more tough- as in difficult for me to mention; i.e. "Go LIVE, With"
I recently spent time online, researching and organizing a Wish List, on Amazon.com The first time I was ever asked if I would consider doing this, was a very long time ago. And I immediately said of course not! First of all, I have a huge problem asking for actual money directly, AND for that matter, asking for help at all- but a "Wish List" as such was suggested to me. At that time, the thought of it, was still just as foreign as asking for anything else... & I did nothing about it. Nearly five years later, & with a more recent encouragement, I have reconsidered, though it still *feels* just as awkward as ever.
This Wish List is about or contains Medical Support, Supplies, Assistive-type devices, Therapeutic garment thingies for feet, legs, hands, & Homeopathic-type remedies. It is well-enough described there, anyway, purpose & most individual items. I had a bit of help, to set it up, but I understand perfectly now, how it all works, & I could & would be able to easily maintain it, as needed.
It was NOT designed for Christmas, or any other special occasion. If it's still on the list, it means it is something I think I could benefit from, in the relieving of discomfort & pain, and perhaps the advancing of my situation!
It's simply THERE. There are NEVER obligations- I am just telling you about it, as I have finally just told a couple family members and a couple of friends.
All I certainly know is that, I DO have a long road ahead of me, but in truth, I always have. My path has always been FULL of medically challenging obstacles with little to NO end in sight, and now... with all of this, it's like a MAJOR set-back, on top of everything else, I've always struggled with & through. Anyway, If anyone should ever feel like perusing this Wish List, feel free. If you should happen to have a bit of extra on hand, and see something you'd like me to have that would be helpful, you already KNOW the level of my type of gratitude. ***If you do not agree with something on the list, for whatever reason, please do not make me feel uncomfortable, by challenging me. This is sensitive enough for me, as it is. Simply do nothing.
Um, You WILL also see a Wish List there, that is also public, but that I've never told anyone about- but since it's public, you'll see it, too. It's for "The Shelter Project" - all that's currently in that one is "Gift Cards" for art materials, in helping me to create the various art products available for purchase, through the Project. I never know what I specifically need, so that's why it's just set up with random gift cards. That seemed a bit lame to me, so I never told anyone. However, if you *would* rather do that, at some point, that's fine, too, but, with "Gift Cards" you are actually exercising more trust, so... I would not expect such.
So, I will place the link to this AMAZON Wish List of mine, here, but it will be the only time, I place it in ANY dA Journal, though I will leave it in the Custom Box on my Profile Page with the dA Art Wish List.
Items will be subject to change of course, as needs change, as quantities of certain items seem to be met, & when items become unavailable, & as I hopefully improve, & even with the possibility of certain things worsening before they would improve. For now, the tentative plan is to leave one up for one year, just to see how something like this goes, how I may or may not benefit, how my health progresses, etc.
Thank you kindly in advance, more than ANY words, in any language could possibly express.
MOST IMPORTANTLY, I thank you for keeping me in your thoughts, sending of positive energy, healing energy, STRENGTH, your prayers (if you tend to), and simply your wishes that I either get better, or somehow muster the further strength to live within yet another shelled condition.
Just thank you for being there, in any positive way.
Just being able to continue "The Shelter Project" the best I could, would be of a great mental boost.
~ OTHER THINGS~
The following things occurred about 3 weeks ago, and all within 3-4 days of each other. The emotional pain would be too much to bear for ANYONE, this I know, so again I say,
[SKIP THIS SECTION, IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO READ/HEAR ABOUT ANYTHING ELSE THAT IS... NOT SO GOOD]
I've mentioned my very young cousin Cole on dA before... 2-3 years ago or so?
He was born with non-verbal Autism- which he's come a LONG way with actually- and was also diagnosed with Leukemia some time just after two years old... his mom, C. fought with him, and for him, and tried to raise just a few hundred dollars once on the internet for bills being a single mom, with just Cole, and at wits end with her own bills, AND, the fact that she had to keep leaving jobs to take care of him.
I remember I put a link to the situation here on dA, back then.
And this is the photo from the "Go Fund Me" Acct. that she used.
About two years later, he was going into remission! But you need FIVE YEARS to be in the clear. Well, just before his 6th B-DAY, this past SUMMER, the Leukemia was BACK.
And through the gamut they went again, including a treatment they tried before which is a little bit pro-active or newish, or different somehow... and well,
after all that, we found out, a couple/few weeks ago that not only did the treatment NOT help, but the Leukemia was even worse, and he would NOT be a good (strong enough) candidate for a bone marrow transplant, giving him 2 weeks to two months to live!
DEVASTATION! He has passed the two week mark, though, AND!
"THE MAKE A WISH FOUNDATION" came knocking at their door, with a whole package trip planned for her, another adult, and Cole to spend a week in DisneyWorld!!!
They even have a section at WDW, set up JUST for children in similar situations as Cole, with a FULL MEDICAL STAFF and ALL of THE CHILDREN'S MEDICAL INFO. and MEDS. on hand!
Well, they've been back & I think they had a great time, according to some posted FB photos- private (and I'm simply NOT on FB) - I've not heard too much since, but unfortunately it IS a freakin' awful waiting game... A truly unbearable one.
(Unfortunately, though through different causations, I can relate personally, due to other tragedy from my own past, and it is definitely unbearable... losing your only child, and the opportunity or choice to have your own children.)
There are times I've talked to her quite a bit, a long the way, but then there are also times, she doesn't really want to talk to anyone- "talk" usually meaning text, but you know what I mean.
Within just a couple/few days hearing about Cole's initial prognosis, AND the WDW trip, my Uncle Lawrence passed on!
This was so very upsetting... he had been ill, most recently falling and breaking two ribs. And if anyone knows what that is like, THAT is some kind of pain. The ONLY good part for me was, that I DID get to see him, on that recent trip to visit family in Tucson, Arizona, during the last two weeks of October.
Despite his age, and certain medical problems, such as with his knees, and then bouts of pneumonia, over the last decade or so, which is hard on ANYONE, and usually especially the elderly, I just do not think anyone expected that he was about to go...
But I guess you never really know.
Of course, I couldn't just turn right back around and BE THERE for my aunt (my mom's youngest sister) and family, BUT would have considering how close (not distance), I've always been with them, had it not been for my darned frickin' new medical conditions! I can't even get out of my damned house because the front and back porch have stairs and we do NOT have ramps, but ANYWAY!
FRUSTRATING, when you can't BE THERE for those you LOVE, and you are STUCK in your own prison of a body!
(Sorry, digressing again...)
But then, I was dealing with my own horror, during this exact SAME time-frame.
I regret to inform you, those especially who knew him, or followed his life with me since the last 6 years- he was only 7, that my dearest Companion Animal/ pet-baby, & only ALL BLACK CAT, Philippe, also passed away, on over "The Rainbow Bridge".
Each pet-baby is or has been very unique and special in their very own way, no doubt, but my dear beloved Philippe has been the FIRST and ONLY furry animal family member who I've EVER referred to, as an actual "Animal Companion" because of certain events that occurred around 1-2 years ago.
But let me tell you, he knew and understood my mental & physical exceptionally well. It was so intriguing, strange, but also very helpful, and so soothing.
I can pinpoint, WHEN it happened, too, when *things* changed for us... I was really sad, upset, & crying, and I was doubled over on my bed, and he gently crawled atop of my back and put his front legs and paws around me from the back of my neck, like he really was literally hugging me, and I'd never felt anything so strongly from an animal in such a way ever in my life before- and I'm fairly in tuned with animals, well, at least the ones I know well or have spent a lot of time with.
From that point on, the way we related was very different, and thank goodness because I needed him, and the TRUTH is I STILL need him... NOW MORE THAN EVER.
The circumstances surrounding his extremely sudden demise are, and likely always will be, way too difficult for me to try to explain. I don't think I ever publicly could.
If he was sick prior, no one knew. I wish the vets had taken me MORE SERIOUSLY when I called the first time, a week earlier, when certain events began to occur, but instead they just pulled up his most recent charts (September) which showed he was healthy, kidneys etc. ... so unless, he was suddenly becoming ill SINCE THEN, or there was some deeper underlying condition, we'll never, EVER know, because they didn't take my urgency seriously- it was "after hours" when I called the 2nd time, too- and would have gladly paid more- but they didn't seem to want to meet me there. He seemed to "sort of" improve in the next 3-4 days, but I could tell that he was NOT himself, that he hadn't truly bounced back, that he was despondent, sitting in one place, not eating well... no one took me seriously- and by the time, I finally did what I WANTED to do to begin with
and took him TO the vet, he never came home- not even to say goodbye to his brothers & sisters...
Three days after taking him to the vet, he remained hospitalized, nothing they could do helped and we had to let him go, and it was ALL SO FAST and sudden, and I believe, it was preventable in various ways along the way, and I don't think I will be okay from this one. I just don't.
Philippe was named after dA's Philippe philippeL (whose permission I confirmed, first) because he was the first cat I adopted after "The Shelter Project" was off the ground, and philippeL (along with JocelyneR ) were the first two people to EVER make purchases on behalf of "The Shelter Project" - thus officially beginning the project over 6 years now- and right here on dA.
My cat Philippe was an excessively sweet boy, to humans, dogs, and other cats- never has there been a pet family-member where so many rest of the pets have acted in obvious ways over his... disappearance. He was so good to everyone, helping to raise and welcome a few of the younger ones, after Jikan did his part doing this same thing a few years earlier (Jikan, my first cat is still around- the main mascot for "The Shelter Project".)
Philippe was a true natural anti-anxiety remedy for me. They're all special and unique, but this one had something intriguingly fascinating that developed as he got older, which served to be of a great tonic and an amazingly understanding being.
Philippe was my companion cat, a tonic of healing, love and peace.
I honestly do not know how I will live without him. It all happened way too fast- I am still in shock- I really believe his life was cut by about 2/3's.
I wish for him to meet up with our other passed-on furry family members, and give them his heart-felt greetings from me. They all knew him, both dogs that have passed, & the kittens/cats: Merlyn, Vanilla Bean, & of course Katie Rose, who passed just earlier this 2016.
FOREVER, YOU AND ME, PHILIPPE, DEAR BUDDY BOY.
Thank you for showing me the truest dimension possible, that some animals can and do give. From the bottom of my heart I salute you, respect you, thank you and LOVE YOU, always, and... well, FOREVER.
HUGE Sincere Apologies to Groups, especially my own of Unframed-Nature who may think I've up and deserted them. Certainly NOT on purpose or by choice. I love my group, but I have not had the capability to follow through with quite a few things, in the least!
As far as the other groups on my list, I don't even know what is going on with them, or they with me. In fact, it might be that a couple/few are not even active anymore.
Plans that I still wish to occur:
(I can not guarantee they will all take place.)
1. To Direct my dear ADMINS. ANDMEMBERS of Unframed-Natureto THIS SECTION of THIS VERY ARTICLE HERE.
2. To Close Unframed-Nature for the Holidays - or for at least a little while- since some of the Holiday Season is past, and that is, if none of my Admins., have not already done so.
We usually leave one Theme Folder open just for fun that spans the end of the year and beginning of the new year. However, as I have been trying to get back to dA, with some sort of news/personal article, since the beginning of this month, with NO success, I am NOT yet sure if we will host any such folder at this time. We shall see.
3. To see if it's even possible to get together the votes for: The Top Subs of Sept. & Oct. plus our Autumn Theme Contest, all which has already been voted on- and present the results in the TOP SUBS of SEPT. & OCT. plus CONTEST RESULTS Article.
***IF I can even get to this at all, it will be exceptionally brief and truncated,
NOT to mention the fact, that I've had several comments from fellow-Admin. and a couple from Members, that due to very low submissions for the CONTEST, which was supposed to be one of our BIGGER ONES, thoughts on how to arrange placements and prizes have been re-assessed, and I think that makes a lot of sense.
4. How voting will go for Nov. - Dec. folders Usually, Admins. take care of it, at this time of year… as in an Admin. only vote time.
However, I think I'll just take care of it myself. In some ways this is easier, because, it does take more time to set up the parameters, and the dates, and getting the votes in, etc. and...
Again, the TOP SUBS for Nov.-Dec. will NEED to be truncated. Just simple.
* TO CUT CORNERS BIG TIME. * TO HAVE ACTIVE ADMINS READY AND WAITING TO VOTE on SUBMISSIONS AS THEY COME IN, AND MOVE THEM TO THEIR CORRECT FOLDERS, when we DO re-open,
especially while I am doing nothing else but "catching up in the background."
5. Later on in mid-end of Jan. the Admins. usually do a "BEST SUBMISSIONS OF THE YEAR"- and they definitely always have helped with that.
We shall see where the group is at that point, based on how we, as a group are smoothly running the day-to-day, AND ANY other help Admins. may want to offer, and definitely, based quite a bit on how I am doing medically, plus grieving, & involved with trying to support my family during this extra difficult time,
Of course I *DO* hope to get back to dAWishingWell a group I adore, and am happy to say have been with from the ground up!
6. I WANT desperately to: continue with “WishingWell Weekly” Articles- I LOVE TO DO THEM...
... but perhaps only doing the “Treasure Chest” portion?
We’ll see... I don't want to say TOO much until I have a chance to mention a couple of things about it with Stygma, our wonderful Founder.
7. I would also like to somehow combine my efforts for dAWishingWell with DevNews having to do with the "Treasure Chest" which I was doing there, too, but haven't in a longer while.
It's been a GREAT group for so long, and I don't know how WDWParksGal has kept it together and organized as long as she has, in the position of Co-Founder.
I feel bad I've not been around so much... but kudos to UszatyArbuz who stepped in many months ago by now, to be of great service.
But anyway, there is MUCH to do to catch up my own group, first. I WILL need to cut corners, IF I am going to be able to do it at all, and I NEED to apologize in advance, if I am NOT able to follow through with all of it.
When the group temporarily closes, if it isn't already, I will place a notice in a CUSTOM BOX on the FRONT PAGE, to ANNOUNCE approximately when it will re-open.
There is also some maintenance that NEEDS TO BE DONE, and a couple of minor changes. That is usually the reason for the "Holiday Closure"... I am going to need to keep ALL of THIS to a minimum, also.
~ Summary ~
Bear with me. In my first time ever with the courage to be this publicly open, my personal medical problems added up, are quite... acute. This is hardest to admit in this format. My emotional/mental state is not so great either. I'm not just trying to survive one day at a time, but I am grieving my own NEW personal medical circumstances, yet on top of the shared family grief of losing my uncle, my companion cat Philippe- who I would especially NEED right now-, and the devastating news of a very young a boy, my cousin, who is about to pass on as well.
Threads. I hang by every fraying one of them.
I know this is long. I know this is TOO LONG. If no one reads all of it, or ANY of it, it really IS okay, But for me, I praised the Universe for a (couple!!) - now 3!- day(s) where my hands did NOT hurt excruciatingly- completely numbed & heavy leadened, more like big balloons! - yet also like glass shards, shivs, and cacti all at once!
So, for ME, this was LIFE. It's been a moment of LIFE, so I TOOK THE OPPORTUNITY.
I reached out, finally - I know it is STILL NOT individually, but if I continue to dwell on how far behind I am in SO many areas, including communication, I will fall deeper down that rabbit's hole. Believe me, I can't afford to do that.
THIS is the BEST I can do right NOW.
So in this moment writing to YOU ALL, is LIFE.
Thank you for this place, that this is simply possible.
By the way, another thing I am grateful for besides people who are genuinely kind, patient, & making efforts to be understanding, is: MUSIC:
For some reason near the end of every calendar year, I begin to subconsciously, and then consciously realize which song "spoke" to me the most throughout the year.
This is "my song" from 2016... don't feel like explaining.
"Lost Boy" by Ruth B.
Then there are those songs, you keep going back to, that you are re-reminded of, or someone/something reminds you of it again. I will always remember the first time Cheryl, or "Cher" as some of you would call her, (dA name: ArtByCher ), sent me this song & video together, in an e-mail. Oh Goodness- the gesture, the song, it all meant so much to me at that time, it was exactly what I needed... and I've remembered it since, and... I need it, yet again.
The thing is, I suspect many of us do.
My Very Dear Friends, Adopted family, Family, (even those I don't know well, or Watchers, I've not come to visit yet, and Passer-by's), I pass this on, or pay it forward... as you may find any ounce of benefit, or know someone else who might. It's only the least I could do:
"Don't Give Up" by Josh Groban
I was so sad when Cheryl finally Deactivated her Account. She had made such a difference to so many people during the the rather long while she was here. She had such deep feeling and compassion, & what a meaningful Artist. I think about her very often, & even though we haven't texted in a rather long while either, it just goes to show, how one person can truly make such a positive helpful impact on another, and probably not even know it.
If only there was even just an ounce extra of such compassion like Cheryl's, throughout & over this world, in 2017. I don't know... but I do wish it could be possible.
This POINTS POOL, is primarily for "THE SHELTER PROJECT".
The Points Pool, was re-started on 9-2-2016, because it was long-since overdue, and many of the points were used for the intended advertised:
TO PURCHASE PRODUCTS, that would generate actual monetary donations for the animals in need, through the Project, such as, but not limited to:
*Several 11x14 prints, which I framed myself- to replace the previous, previous 11x14's- which SOLD- plus a few magnets, and several mugs!
As this is an ongoing project, I really would like to save up again, for similar items.
In 2016, two actual shelters combined, with the idea that they might be stronger as one organization.
"South Coast Humane Society" & "Pennies for Pooches" in another town, officially became: "Wild Rivers Animal Rescue" - and it, with the new name, was officially announced, just this past Summer of 2016. (I will add any new website, as soon as I become aware of it, myself.)
What does this mean for "The Shelter Project"?
It means, there are many more animals, IN NEED, involved, (medical needs, including spays & neuters, while they wait for adoption) , at any given time!
What Do YOU Get by Donating?
1 - 19 Acknowledgement, Thanks, Llama.
20 - 100 The Above, PLUS, Several 's & Comments on your work.
101 - 800 The Above, PLUS, EXTRA 's, & you'll likely have a work or two REQUESTED to Unframed-Nature, IF you have ANY type of NATURE Work, that fits that group, PLUS, you will likely appear in one or two of various features, that I do regularly.
801 - 1,000 The Above, PLUS, You will continue to appear in various features, for a while, including any other ways deemed fitting, in order to promote your own work.
1,001 + The Above, PLUS, I will ALSO do, whatever I can to promote any Event/s or Project/s of your own, or even possibly, of a dA Friend's, as long as it is one of education, compassion and benefit to Animals, Nature, the Environment, Humans, and Humanity.
And I admit, I DO just LOVE to give out 's ! Each = 80 but what can I say- good, kind, wonderful people deserve CAKE!
It is also possible at certain times, I would like to GIVE a small amount of Points to certain individuals, to show my own support, specific appreciation, or particular recognition of something.
If you would LIKE to specify, WHAT your donation is FOR, in the "Donation Comment" - this would actually be very helpful. Most of the time, the 's will be used for "The Shelter Project". Even if you do NOT specify, this will likely be the case- BUT, if you do NOT specify, I may use some of the points, for the "Other Reasons" I donate points, as just described above.
And to those specifically HERE for DONATING TO "THE SHELTER PROJECT", I either continue to thank you for your ongoing support...
OR, I do thank you in advance, if this is your FIRST TIME, helping the project, in any kind of way.
Thank you for being a part of "The Shelter Project" TEAM!
Helping Animals Thru' ART
Artist | Professional | Varied
One of The Most Moving Gifts I've Ever Received... In Life, Created by Candy candysamuels
"Tea by Candy" The self-portrait I am holding in this photo, is a traditional work done by the extremely remarkably talented Candy Samuels candysamuels This was the original upload: Then she mailed it!
She's such a dear, sweet friend, who is simply FABULOUS!
This gift was such a unique surprise for me, and I'll always feel moved by her amazing kindness.
This amazing video was made for me, by my dearest friend Teresa as a surprise gift... She wanted to make this video to place in her Custom Box on her own Profile Page where she is so very generously promoting The Shelter Project: teaphotography.deviantart.com/…
Not long after, she also made yet another one which contains more of my animal work, and is more particularly about The Shelter Project: teaphotography.deviantart.com/…
And, THEN, as also a BIG Part of The Shelter Project she created another video to support my hand-crafted jewelry that also donates funds for the animals, through purchases:
She'd made THIS one for my birthday! Teresa never ceases to amaze me with her creativity in seeking out ways to support this worthy cause for animals!
To SEE ALL JEWELRY which Supports the Animals of THE SHELTER PROJECT, GO HERE: teaphotography.deviantart.com/… Contact me directly... and thank you in advance for your interest!
A feature of Teresa's 's stunning work:
I thank you profoundly, my dearest Teresa, as this is so very special to me from the bottom bottom of my heart- the same way I am always truly humbled by your ongoing support and friendship! You are a fabulous and beautiful friend!
"Treat the Earth well. It was not given to us by our parents; it was loaned to us by our children. We do not inherit the Earth from our ancestors- we borrow it from our children." ~Native American Proverb
"Human beings are more alike than unalike, and what is true anywhere is true everywhere, yet I encourage travel to as many destinations as possible for the sake of education as well as pleasure." ~Maya Angelou
“Injustice anywhere is a threat to justice everywhere.” ~Dr. Martin Luther King Jr. 1963
"I can't understand what makes a man [person] hate another man [person]..." ~lyrics to People are People by Depeche Mode
"You can't shake hands with a clenched fist." ~Indira Gandhi
"When the power of love, overcomes the love of power, the world will know peace." ~Jimi Hendrix
"The care of human life and happiness and not their destruction is the first and only object of government." ~Thomas Jefferson
“I truly believe that compassion provides the basis of human survival.” ~The 14th Dalai Lama
“You may say I'm a dreamer, but I'm not the only one, I hope someday you'll join us, And the world will live as one.” ~lyrics to Imagine by John Lennon
"I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world everyday. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head all the time." ~John Coffey in The Green Mile
Sometimes, certain quotes & music lyrics can reflect bits of me here and there, the way my own writings and photography can. But it's difficult to truly presume to know me, no matter how much is on one website, or in one gallery... I run deep and I've lived broad...
Regardless, for more literal info., there's the BIO called "The 411 on Tea of Tea Photography" here: teaphotography.deviantart.com/… It's down the right-hand side.
Personal Quote: Life is Art, Messy yet Beautiful all at Once. ~Tea
That's a start anyway. If you need help with other FAQ, ask away! SIMPLY, NOTE ME.
If you still are not finding specifically what you are looking for or how to find something, on dA, NOTE ME, and I will try my very BEST to help you, or I'll find someone who can, or try to research the avenue you need... Yes, I am here to help.
I won't be linking it again in any other journal, but mentioned I would place it on my Profile Page with my dA Wish List.
The idea is to keep it up for 1 year (thru Dec. of 2017) to see how something like this goes, and assess my medical disabilities along the way, with final assessment in Dec. of 2017.
Of course, I do plan to update the list as needed throughout the year... but at the risk of repeating myself, IF you do find yourself curious or even wanting to help, I WOULD suggest reading that "ME" Section, in the above-mentioned journal. Thank you... &, thank you BIG-TIME, in advance to anyone who is able to help in this way, at any point throughout 2017.
I have a super teeny home. Within it, though, I've carved out an art studio. A few particulars of my own works are up, BUT, I have NEW PLANS to dedicate a WHOLE WALL to extra spectacularly meaningful works of Art, from wondrously talented artists I happen to find right here on dA!
This eensy location inside my teeny home is my only personal space, which brings me inspiration, peace, & a healthy state of mind. It won't necessarily always be about wishing for the art of my closest friends. So don't be hurt if your art is not in my wishlist. I honestly have such limited space, and super specific reasons for my choices.
And speaking of the "limited space" - I can't have "mugs" for myself, for a while. I would want the "photo" in "matte" in the smallest availably made sizes. For only bigger sizes available, in "squares": I would be ok with 8x8's or 10x10's. For the "rectangular": I prefer 11x14, mainly because they are easiest to find frames where I live, but 9x12's / 10x12's are okay, too.
Thank you in ADVANCE, if anyone should decide to do THIS, which would not just make me HAPPY, but another ARTIST! WIN, WIN!
It was recently pointed out that I had a full cake and tons of CM, that should be traded in for "... Until Hell Freezes Over" but I don't know how, yet- but the point is, "they" told me, they didn't know "what to get me",
( NOT including "The Shelter Project" of course- this is a TEAM PROJECT- an entity of its own! )
I had thought about this for a few months, after all, I've always felt that there is nothing I should be asking for, and that I should not be asking for help, with anything either...
Later, around the beginning of NOVEMBER, 2016 (see section "ME" of that journal) certain... things changed, & I thought about this widget here, as a way publically display my NEW WISH LISTS.
Thank you for your time, if you were able to read this, & of course BIG THANKS to ANYONE, in advance, who might be able to grant a wish.
Those who know me BEST, KNOW how much I take generosity extremely seriously- even if YOU think it's very small, even a kind encouraging word to me, or seeing/reading it TO ANOTHER, moves me GREATLY!